Understood

I hear your soft words
Echo through my beating heart
True friendship begins

Happy Birthday, A.

1.29.08

Happily Never After

You lie here beside me
Yet we lie together alone
And in the darkness you can’t see
That this house is a far cry from a home
I won’t dream about you tonight
As I drift off to a restless sleep
And before the darkness turns to light
I’ll have new memories that I’ll let keep
Because even if they are not real
They will carry me through the day
Thoughts that you can’t try to steal
As you only push me farther away
We can stand alone together
Until one of us gives up on forever

1.28.08

Dry Soil

Thirsting
A drink of water
Will not save me quenched
Wilting too fast to rebirth
Dying

1.28.08

Storms

I searched my silent soul
To look for the choice words
Trapped in a darkened hole
To be written instead here first
Warmth turned to hurt and anger
As you let the rainfall pour onto me
No umbrella for me to stand under
Visions blurred to what we can’t see
Good enough is only half the truth
In a life we play out each day
Casting shadows under the roof
Where you insist we all must stay
We each lick our wounds
For the hurting marks are there
As we brace for another round
Of the storms you always share
Lost to where you will go
In a place I refuse to know

1.28.08

Jeffrey

Jewel of my heart
Edged with innocence
Free with laughter
Forever singing to my heart
Rich with warmth and pride
Empty of anything dark
Youngest and cherished son

01.18.08

Abandonment

To remember them
Like they never went away
In the quiet night
When darkness stole all she had
Brings brief comfort lost to pain

01.18.08

Losing Faith

I can't
Pretend it's okay
Knowing you don't love me
Casts doubt over my fragile heart
Breaking

01.18.08

The Black Sheep

His darkened rage
Becomes his angry temper
That cannot be caged
Consuming the child I remember
He once laughed at the moon
And embraced in his life the sun
Which now sets each day too soon
Where I fear who he will become
Someone who finds himself broken
In a world he cannot escape
Trapped in hurt words unspoken
Bound by his own red tape
All of these things bind him
Lost to where I can't find him

01.06.08

Reflection

Eyes
Sad, Brown
Searching, Seeing, Knowing
Looking in the mirror
Recognition

01.05.08

Inward Anger

It grows and burns
Like fire,
And there aren't enough
Tears to put it out.
It lasts and lasts until
It finally charrs you,
Leaving smoldering smoke
That suffocates...

10.19.87

Death of a Child

Tear-stained faces
Gathered in a room
For grieving.

Two strong emotions
Conflicting in a room
For remembering.

One small being
Sleeping near a clock
Forever.

9.25.87

You Yet Are Not Alone

What are you doing?
Alone that you are.
Your life seems so small,
You wander not far.

How do you sleep?
Alone every night.
You protect yourself,
Yet have no fright.

When do you cry?
Alone with your thoughts.
Emotions hidden deep,
Are hardly ever sought.

Where have you been?
Alone all your life.
A world of such solitude,
Not brilliant and bright.

Why do you believe?
Alone is not lonely.
Too much is just that,
Alone and not free.

9.4.87

Loneliness

It's a powerful force
Force that comes not known
Known to immobilize you
You feel emptiness
Emptiness that lasts so long
So long that seems forever
Forever taking away your time
Time that is so real
Real moments that are wasted
Wasted by the evil
Evil emotions that can kill

2.22.87

Snowdrifts

Aimless destinations
They blow with the wind
Snowflakes that form
In permanent places
To settle for a while
Until another form of nature
Domineers in the day
Fighting in long cold battles
Only with the snowdrifts
That are barriers within and for
Themselves

1.26.87