Coloring My World Bright

Sometimes I wonder
Where I'd be
If I didn't have the
Friendship of thee
For seeing me through
My darkest days
And showing such kindness
In so many ways
For holding my hand
And keeping me strong
For making me believe
I could do no wrong
When I found I
Couldn't help myself
You alone were
All my help
For being there
You made me see
Just how important
You are to me
And with gratitude
I want you to know
How you've colored my life
With your brilliant rainbow

02.07.89

A Silence Too Quiet

It was as quiet as I
Allowed the day to be
I was free to do what I wanted
But the silence of the telephone
And having no one to talk to
Changed the peaceful quiet
To lonely solitude
It was as lonely as I
Hoped the day wouldn't be

02.05.89

My Colors, Your Colors

You can play upon my emotions
And touch me with your words
You know you say the sweetest things
That I've ever heard
And even in our silence
Of me you can have a hold
Because the colors shining from you
Illuminate my soul

11.05.88

Until Then

Today I felt unhappy
Until I saw a child
Laughing
Then I laughed too

Today I felt like crying
Until I saw an old mean
Smiling
Then I smiled too

Today I felt lonely
Until I saw two friends
Hug
Then I thought of you

11.03.88

Charade

I saw it in her eyes -
The emptiness
I had felt as less,
Unable to ruse
To the expectation
I needed for me,
For tomorrow to be
A stranger's revelation.

11.02.88

The Pain In My Heart

It's just little me again
Thinking about you to pass the time
It has never been easy for me
To get you off of my mind

So I've finally come to realize
And just wanted you to know
There will always be a part of me
That will never let you go

That part of me will hurt
Each day and this is because
I miss you with all my heart
And it's a pain of absent love

08.23.88

Realizing Our Fate

When fate brought you to me
I was lost and so alone
I didn't think anyone could
Take my heart
Without me wanting it back
For myself
But I'm realizing each time
You're with me
That I want to share it
With you

I don't want to disappoint you
With false expectations
But my hopes parallel yours
And although my heart has
Been bruised
Loving you seems to be the
Best remedy

Still I sometimes stumble
Into darkness
And find myself not making
Sense
I cry for no apparent reason
Even when I'm holding you close
In my arms

Please don't displace my moments
Of apathy
With inner guilt or even fault
For it's only my way of learning
To keep myself content
While I want to make you
Happy
As you have done
When fate brought you to me

05.07.89