Saved

You took a leap of faith.
I thought you'd never really see.
I thought about everything you knew.
How could this ever be?
You never really understand,
Until you open up your eyes
Confronting what's wrong and right
Letting go of the pain then and now.
You would listen,
Promise faith and hope.
Showing me light in darkness,
Saving me.
I told you that I was broken
And watched the clouds form in our eyes,
In your crying eyes
Back on that rainy night when
You matched your steps to my pace.

You knew I was reckless and tired;
I wasn't fooling you.
You knew all my fears, my cover, my lies
And seemingly endless sins.
But what about that night?
We took a few tumbles and falls.
Still you wouldn't let go of my hand,
No matter the price or cost.
And
You would listen,
Promise faith and hope.
Showing me light in darkness,
Saving me.
I told you that I was broken
But through it all you knew I'd rise
While you dried my eyes.
Back on that rainy night when
You showed me the meaning of true grace.

Oh how sweet the memory when
You would listen,
Promise faith and hope.
Showing me light in darkness,
Accepting me.
I told you that I was broken
And watched the clouds clear from your eyes,
From your loving eyes.
Back on that rainy night when
We created a moment that can never be erased.

04.29.17

©Kerri L. Stanley

I Still See You

I've lost track of the reasons of why I'm still here,

To put an end to this torture and pain,

But it still finds me, and remind me,

Yeah, you've got this down so easily. 

Try new things I wouldn't do,

To bring distance between me and you,

That I never tried,

Cause it's fight or flight.

But no matter what, you still can't hide. 


I've made amends, I've made excuses.
Made up the reasons to end this hell.
But I still see you.
I tried the truth, I tried lying.
I've been off and I've been on.
But I still see you.
I've done what I can to escape it like I'm supposed to.
But I'd give anything for the chance to let justice prevail.
Cause I still see you.
I still see you, there.

I never knew 'til you showed up.
It seems to never end; a game you have to win.
Whether day or night, you're there again.
Well I don't know how to let this go.
I continue to hide everything I know.
It seems so hopeless; you are relentless.

But everybody already knows it.
No, I don't know how to do this.

I've made amends, I've made excuses.
Made up the reasons to end this hell.
But I still see you.
I tried the truth, I tried lying.
I've been off and I've been on.
But I still see you.
I've done what I can to escape it like I'm supposed to.
But I'd give anything for the chance to let justice prevail.
Cause I still see you.
I still see you, there.

Day and night, I still see you there.

04.26.17

©Kerri L. Stanley

Typical Mistake

It's not so typical 

This truth you witness.
It's every tear that falls 
And it's every move you make.
It's everything you see
And  it's every step you take.
It's so critical of you
To  cover up the truth.
It's every reason to call.
It's every breath you take.
It's everything you want to be 
And it's all to justify its sake.
It's not so physical.
This lie you pretend that isn't. 
It's the fear of denying it all
And it's every excuse you make.
It's everything you don't need.
And it's your most grievous mistake.

04.19.17
©Kerri L. Stanley