Corn Maze

Acres of darkness
Casting shadows in the night
Sharp turns and dead ends
We traverse left and right
Lost and separated in this maze
Looking for any way out
An infraction of this moment
That only leaves more doubt

10.20.08

Seeking What Matters

It’s a matter of discipline
Weakened over time
We have been beaten down
You continue to cross the line
Seeking not justice
But instead more self doubt
The mirror is warped
Hiding who it’s about
It’s a matter of identity
Lost to the past
You have become him anyway
Hidden beneath your grim mask
Seeking forgiveness
You know you can’t teach
He knows who you are
And will stay out of reach
It’s a matter of survival
And too many open wounds
Seeking lost comfort
Abandoned all too soon

10.15.08

Ripple Effects

The water will ripple
With the toss of the stone
Yet imbalance is caused
Even before it is thrown
How long it can skip
Will depend on the strength
Not just at release
Where you measure the length
Gravity will hold it
Somewhere down below
Claiming a new surface
Where nobody will know
In this spot it will stay
Until its exposure through droubt
To be picked up again
And tossed farther out
Ensuring this time its depth
Will not behold its existence
For here it will lie
And seek further resistance
To grow or be moved
Beyond this drowning location
Stilling the water
In its limited salvation

10.13.08

First Embrace

His eyes were kind and warm
His spirit as gentle as his hands
A promise made the day he was born
To do all that his job would demand
Keeping him well as he should
Watching him grow year to year
Entrusting his life as he would
And offering his brothers to bear
Filling their charts with his notes
That told of their health and growth
But hidden from all that he wrote
Was the seed he had long since sowed
Hearing their tiny hearts as they beat
Breaking their mother’s so that she would weep
Not counting on his sudden departure
That took him away all too soon
It is not the time for us to see this juncture
What of the visits that will not take place in those rooms
And the one where they have grown to be teens
Where he would remember them once so small
The memories will be there in between
Ever since they ran noisily up and down the halls
Though the pain of his loss will diminish over time
I will always be proud that my sons’ pediatrican, he was mine

10.12.08

Blessings

It was a long ago dream
I still envision today
That nagging self-doubt
That just won't go away
What ifs and whys
Torment me each day
Since the past stole my future
In this bed I must lay
Regrets, there are many
So silently I pray
To appreciate the blessings
That have all come my way

10.06.08

Yet Again

You think we don't notice
How the sky turns to night
When you walk in the door
We must prepare for a fight
Something is missing
Or something is wrong
Another thing broken
And it's the same old song
We put up with your bitterness
Nowhere to hide
Love edged with resentment
That can't be defied
Hasten the hours
To end this bad day
But the light of the morrow
Won't lead us away
Hope for our future
Dies in our hearts
You won't set us free
So we live together, apart

10.06.08