I Still See You

I've lost track of the reasons of why I'm still here,

To put an end to this torture and pain,

But it still finds me, and remind me,

Yeah, you've got this down so easily. 

Try new things I wouldn't do,

To bring distance between me and you,

That I never tried,

Cause it's fight or flight.

But no matter what, you still can't hide. 


I've made amends, I've made excuses.
Made up the reasons to end this hell.
But I still see you.
I tried the truth, I tried lying.
I've been off and I've been on.
But I still see you.
I've done what I can to escape it like I'm supposed to.
But I'd give anything for the chance to let justice prevail.
Cause I still see you.
I still see you, there.

I never knew 'til you showed up.
It seems to never end; a game you have to win.
Whether day or night, you're there again.
Well I don't know how to let this go.
I continue to hide everything I know.
It seems so hopeless; you are relentless.

But everybody already knows it.
No, I don't know how to do this.

I've made amends, I've made excuses.
Made up the reasons to end this hell.
But I still see you.
I tried the truth, I tried lying.
I've been off and I've been on.
But I still see you.
I've done what I can to escape it like I'm supposed to.
But I'd give anything for the chance to let justice prevail.
Cause I still see you.
I still see you, there.

Day and night, I still see you there.

04.26.17

©Kerri L. Stanley