Justification

What are you trying to prove?
What good does it do for you?
To continue this story of sorrow
Doing things you shouldn't do
As if confession should be enough
To justify it all in your mind
You can mark the hands of time
And believe it is not at all love
But close your eyes each night
Convince yourself nothing is wrong
While your life unravels some more
Tell yourself it will be alright
But the guilt, it will not subside
The argument will always be there
Turmoil that bruises your heart
An affair from which you can't hide
Where do you think it will lead?
Why keep watering the seed?
To nurture something that is wrong
It will never set you free

04.06.13

Clouded Judgment

Standing there in the dark
One foot stepped over the line
You will boldly still embark
So fragile is your hurt heart
It's a risk you take each time
And it will set you from others apart
Unaware of the picture's mark
And that it all is really not fine
Too late to stop what you start
Keeping score on your personal chart
Hoping he'll see you shine
Unaware of the mounting charge
Causing others to question this entourage
That it is "off" and wrong of its kind
Not invisible even near or afar
Watching you there as you are
I fear for what they might find
You see, they are not at all blind

 1.13.13

Self-doubt

He stands outside the circle
Unwilling to step over the line
Looking at the broken pieces
Of what he must leave behind
Turning his back to that life
And slowly making his way
From the pieces he couldn't fix
Since he threw them all away
Soon coming upon a door
Open and welcoming
But he passes it by moving on
Certain he will never fit in
One meant to live alone
Having broken so long ago
Unable to step over the line
And becoming his only foe

Fall '08