Grief: The Cost of Commitment

I'm fighting to open that door
Because I don't know what I will find
It's the fear of all that is unknown
And everything that would be left behind

It's the numbness I feel from within
I can no longer deny the cold truth
There is nothing more left to deny
Of an emptiness that I cannot undo

I've been suffocating in this loneliness
My back up against that wall
Standing on the edge of a looming goodbye
In love with you again I can't fall

You see, I'm already alone
In isolation I live out each day
Push open the door to my heart
In my grief let me then walk away

5.31.14
©Kerri L. Stanley

Insignificance

We awaken on this day
Blessed to see daylight
No matter what the weather
Dare you act with it in sight
You embrace the memory
Of today's anniversary
Wishing the clock stalled time
Keeping thoughts that you will carry
At the end of the last hour
Long shadows cast in the night
Swallowing the day's intentions
Diminished that they might
Mean less to the one you love
Transforming today's intent
To one you'd rather forget
With yesterday it is buried and sent
With your tears that fall silently
Harboring another lost day
Holding your fragile heart
And keeping from running away

06.23.10