Without You Here

Those boxes on the shelf went for years untouched,
I took them down the other day. 

Photos of you I'd forgotten all about 

From all those birthdays and holidays.

I've been moving on as best I can with my life.

I've even let go of all that fear

Of not knowing how I'd ever survive through the years,

But that I'd have to even without you here. 

I'm not trying to make excuses,

But sometimes I just wanna disappear.

Now the memories are all I have left;

It's not easy being me without you here. 

The boxes are back up on the shelf,

Things I know I'll never be able to throw away.

I wish I could take one more picture of you,

I wish we could have one more day. 

I'm not trying to make excuses,

But sometimes I just wanna disappear.

Now the memories are all I have left;

It's not easy being me without you here. 

No, I'm not trying to make excuses,

I'm just going day to day without you here. 

12.16.16
©Kerri L. Stanley