I'm fighting to open that door
Because I don't know what I will find
It's the fear of all that is unknown
And everything that would be left behind
It's the numbness I feel from within
I can no longer deny the cold truth
There is nothing more left to deny
Of an emptiness that I cannot undo
I've been suffocating in this loneliness
My back up against that wall
Standing on the edge of a looming goodbye
In love with you again I can't fall
You see, I'm already alone
In isolation I live out each day
Push open the door to my heart
In my grief let me then walk away
5.31.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Grief: The Cost of Commitment
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 7:50 PM 0 comments
Labels: freedom, Grief, Heartbreak, Loss
Oppressed
You can't see that I am oppressed
Starving for love and nurturing
That you cannot provide to me
I have become a broken vessel
Aimlessly wandering in and out
Of fragmented chapters of this
Sad and dark love story
In truth I have no help left in me
And I don't know how to fix it
Too weak to take hold of what we had
Built on the very fragile foundation
Where we promised for better and worse
My hope for us is not unshaken
Surely you are enduring the same suffering
You can't see that you too are oppressed
5.31.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 7:42 PM 0 comments
Labels: Broken heart, failure, lost love
Say Your Prayers, Honey
Say your prayers, honey
We need to communicate
And connect our inner thoughts
Before the love turns into hate
Say your prayers, honey
We need to unify our hearts
The vows we made to each other
Won't matter if we are apart
Say your prayers, honey
Ask Him to intercede
And save your soul and mine
Enough for true love to bleed
Say your prayers, honey
Thank Him for yesterday
Hold true to the loves in your life
All the time and every day
05.27.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 10:04 AM 0 comments
Labels: holding on, prayer, vows
So I Can't Expect You to Know
So I can't expect you to know
That I am teetering on the tight rope
Searching for fragmented answers
To these questions I have in lost hope
Time has worn us both out
And our love discontinues to grow
You've forgotten I still have needs
So I can't expect you to know
I feel like I'm standing still
Letting this life pass me by
Missing what we once had
Sharing lows and not enough highs
So I can't expect you to know
And I'd never expect you to change
But I can no longer balance this way
Feeling trapped like I'm locked in a cage
I can't do this at all anymore
But I can't figure out how to go
Please let go of the rope, lest I fall
So I can't expect you to know
05.27.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 10:00 AM 0 comments
Do Not Turn Around
Do not turn around for the bridge did burn
By the matches in your hand despite what you'll say
But for equality and fairness you cannot discern
Yet always regretted still wanting to yearn
Your actions well marked to words you will say
Do not turn around for the bridge did burn
Countless mistakes, still you won't ever learn
That forgiveness is yours at the end if the day
But for equality and fairness you cannot discern
In the darkness at night you will toss and turn
Unaware of how things even turned out this way
Do not turn around for the bridge did burn
Endearments lost to this way you will again return
No way to feel better even with a delay
But for equality and fairness you cannot discern
At the end if the day, you will go and adjourn
Words on your lips, to Him you would pray
Do not turn around for the bridge did burn
But for equality and fairness you cannot discern
05.25.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 8:49 PM 0 comments
Labels: Villanelle
Pretending to Forgive
I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt
Seeking forgiveness in my heart for
Trying to allow time to erase the foundation
Of the past and those harsh words I've heard you throw out
Truth is undeniable and we both know it was a lie
To pretend to be cordial and fake our forced smiles
In the name of common connections and the sport
Where goals and your hypocrisy you could never hide
So go ahead and lock the door and throw away the key
Having slammed the door in my face for selfish reasons
You've shown your truest colors in a fight that wasn't yours
Witnessing your childish behavior I won't hide for all to see
If you ever have the power not like the kind that breeds hatred
You might look in the mirror and someday see what I now see
The reasons for why you find yourself standing there alone
With a net that is your barrier away from which I've been led
I've brushed it off my shoulder, the dust that once was doubt
Something I know I should have done all those years ago
Still, not caring will take some time to come around again
I'll remember looking back to pretend not to care what it's about
05.05.14
©Kerri L. Stanley
Posted by Poetry Echoes at 11:34 PM 0 comments
Labels: bero, False friendship, politics, power, truth